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LOST…..yesyeaahh am lost, bcoz of LOVE…love can make sick ppl become health..can make health ppl bcome sick…which one am I belong?! I even don’t know and don’t wanna  find it out. I wish I cud buy new heart…wash ma brain…I dnt wanna live in past..coz it was too hurts…I even dnt knw now have I passed it all?! Its present yeah but soul and heart are still in past…wat bot ma future? No one knows..only Allah knows…am so sad tonyt…really sad coz am an idiot who wanted hurt sumone but when I hve done it..ma heart more hurts..I just wanna make sumone to hate me…I knw it will hurt him but its d only way I guess to forget d past…any else?! I dnt think so…d more I try, more hard for me to forget..I knw it wont lyk as instant as make instant noodles..its all bot TYM….yaa tym…and we cant turn it back. We have tym now…tmorw..d day afta tmorow…we can learn by d past..only dat we can do coz we cant back…only movin forward..go ahead coz lyf must go on, no matter wat..am cryin and dnt knw wat to do…acted lyk don’t care but I swear it hurts…hurts when I knew he got hurts by ppl he trusts on....hurt, mad, and sad when he said stupid to himself…I wonder, whre were u?! seems lyk u played w/ma heart when I was w/u..u really neva used it and jst threw ma cares and love away then now?! even ppl who love me said "r u crazy?! just move on...forget all..u got hurt too much...u dserve get better". Its tragic…I was writin sum stupid things long tym w/smile on ma face full of love and happiness and then now again writin stupid thing w/wet & swollen eyes also heartbroken and yeah still all bot YOU!!! I just wanna say LOVE is UNPREDICTABLE, u can make a plan and still dnt knw wat wud happen later...sumtyms sumthin happens..sumthin dat we neva expect but it happens </3

Happy April Fool's Day!!!

April 1^st 2012………………

I woke up in d morning bot 7am and then as usual online lol wat else…and then on FB Puspa Pebrianti chatted me said sis fisa asks u to come mig well I said okay wait…then I came and went to Sean’s rum…I met her thre and I askd y sis? Pebot said u wanted talk w/me then she said ya sis I wanna talk serious w/ya…and then said wat serious? But huh she left and then Pebot pv me said sis y don’t u cme in rum? I said I had meet in Sean’s rum then she said come in rum then..fisa is getting angry now (Pebot was ---> :-O) and then I said y? she said Idk just come then well I said okay….

Tadaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!! I entred and got fisa’s text “she said am her sis but she backstabbed me” and gita got shocked  ---> :-O also pebot and then I was bein d suspected person…they judged me….bombed me w/million questions…Fisa said “mb told me dat u introduced him w/ur bestfrnd and dats y he rarely cmes online coz of he chatted w/dat gal w/otha id” and I was “WAT???? :-O” “am neva did it, mb told a lie…how cud? And whos dat gal?” and then she said “now u are askin me whos dat gal? ask urself” (I was ‘woaaahhhhhh’ delicious breakfast in d mg, wat d ….?!!) they kept judging me and I hate dat coz I didn’t do anything wrong soooo realy realy didn’t get…and I swore in d name of Allah and pebot said “don’t take Allah’s name”…….and OMG I wud neva eva swear for lies…especially w/Allah’s name….1^st I tot dat it was just jokin coz its weird lyk pebot askd me to come and was nycly in pv and then in rum changed bcome power ranger LOL :D and then gita pretended shockd :D ma heart was so hurtin by their judges…and I was cryin huh it touched ma heart so…coz they judged for thing dat am neva did till I remind dat was in mb’s rum I introduced him w/ma frnd in real is rani..even fisa and mb hvnt met yet soo it wasn’t wrong coz they hvnt known eachotha yet and also I said if dat gal he meant so am gonna ask her for knwin d truth coz she even neva cme online anymore and then how cud he chatted her? I was thinkin dat mb is so cruel and liar….I explained to em in rum and I said gonna text her and then Pebot and Fisa said “no need just stay here and I just wanna say sumthin to u for d last tym and listen me carefully”…………………………………………………………

“HAPPY APRIL FOOL, WE LOVE YOU SIS :* :* :* :*” and aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh SHIT successfully they fooled me and its pebot’s idea huh so fisa did it to pebot but failed so she gave suggest to fisa coz she said am innocent huhuhuuhu and she tot dat I will cry and yesyeahh they got d main purpose….I was thinkin bfore dat r they just fuckin kiddin me?!...and I wanted to ask to em but they got anger at me and I tot its not d correct tym when ppl get angry at u and u ask dat such an impolite quest coz really they are great in actin lol :D :D :D I was doubtin when eve came and pebot said “now I know d color of u” and eve said “dita is a rainbow I guess :D”….at dat tym I wanted ask wat kinda is d color then pebsuuuu? But again I didn’t and then fisa slapped eve coz she was laughin ouccccccccccccchhhh *errr* and fisa said dat eve almost broke d plannin and wanted tel me d truth ohh dnt worry eve sis..sean will kiss ur cheeks awawwwwww :D lol but I got slap also from pebot twice if I wasn’t mistaken….so fisa said “forgive me sis eerrrr” and I said “its okay sis :* thx for foolin me, I was just shockin and surprised u all can judge me lyk dat”….they were LOL and sean came and they kept laughin and kissin and huggin me awawwwwww *blushin* and wat d hell sean asked repeat lol he missed d best scenes :D fisa said d next round is mb and we shud ssssssssshhhhhhh *shut+up=shutup* :D and yesyeah I wanted involve but I think I missed d scenes coz I went offline afta got surprised by ‘em…was helpin ma mum cookin yumm yummm :9 and till nyt I didn’t cmbk…net sucks on pc and was runnin out of credits…pooooorr mee -___-“ Fisa said “sorry sis u laugh and cry at d same tym” then I said “its okay sis laughin afta cryin atleast not cryin afta laughin :*” was sighin so deeeeeeeeeeeeeppp as deep as sea lol afta knw dat they wre just kiddin me and OMG how cud I fgrt dat today is d 1^st day of April whre ppl make plannin for foolin otha….If I c ma calendar  at 1^st ...they wud fail but othawise they got wat they want…..I admit dat Fisa & Pebot are great in actin :* :D gita I was doubtin at her and eve was too much laughin sis lol :D :D dats y u got slap *errr* just admit dat Fisa is our Guru in everythin hahahhahahah :D next I will sleep w/ma calendar so when wk up I will knw d date coz I admit dat I hve been fooled coz of date….I updated status "Happy Saturday" when dat day was Friday :D I didn’t realize till rizky was pv me and said sis its Friday not Saturday lol huh I was mistaken, I tot yesterday ma bro went to pray jumma Mubarak….Oh Gawd dats y avi in rum said ditu happy Saturday lol :D and I replied confidently ya Happy Saturday lol I knw afta dat huh and I tot he was mokin me lol but didn’t tel me bot ma wrong stat….I was so thankful to ledyqiud and yeah she was laughin in ma pv :* …….. and also I wanted go to college when it was national holiday….I hve taken bath and I saw ma card study plan and saw d lessons & I remembred ma frnds said dat next week we wont hve dis class coz of holiday and I ran took ma mobile and saw d date…Oh thx coz I hvnt dressed yet so no need to chnge clothes lol….I felt weird at 1^st coz ma dad didn’t go to office and ma sis didn’t go to school…and If I didn’t c ma card study plan…I wud be lyk idiot study aloneeeee -___-“ so I came back chattin and pebot askd u said hve class y u hre? So I told her and she was LOL at me :D :D yeahhhh almost huh (dies)

By d way….anyway…busway….I got sum lessons by dis April Fool’s Day:

1^st I’d rather be fooled than backstabbed...2^nd we live in dis world sumtyms cry, laugh, sad, happy and I laugh afta cry…its beta than cry afta laugh so I believe sumone will make me smile wide than bfore….laugh out loud more than before…and wish no more tears….so beware for ppl who laugh ova otha….just wait d turn back and be ready for dat…coz lyf lyk a spinnin wheel,  sumtyms we’re above & sumtyms below ... and I believe dat :) not always lyk wat we expect…sumtyms, sumthin wat we expect is not d goodest for us…not alwys happy….but not alwys sad soo just enjoy every moment we have & wait d next moment which will come to us…no one knows d future. I love ya all just lyk ma real sis….u all have taken ur own seat in ma heart…no one can replace d seats so just lets watch d movie lol…now ma love is just only for u all ma sis….am happy coz of u all…and thx for lovin me and bein w/me till now. Lots of kissssssssssssssssss :* :* :* ………..lots of huggggggggggggggggg {} {} {}…………..and lots of loveeeeeeeeeeeeee <3 <3 <3 for ya allllllllllllllll